Career Confusion

I have been struggling lately to work out what career I would like. I have a degree in Criminology and sociology and currently work as an administrator in a relevant field. I have been feeling frustrated in this role and would like to have more interaction with the public. I have applied for a few jobs here and there and a few have rejected me while others have invited me to assessment centres that I am waiting to attend. I know that sounds like a good thing that I have interviews a head of me but today I have hit a wall where I just don’t know what I want to do…I just know that I don’t want to stay in the job that I am in now.

I have never really known what I am good at and what kind of role I would succeed at. I have wanted a new job for a while and after a stressful day I think it has just hit me that the new job is not as close as I would like it to be and in some way feel trapped in my current job. I have always wanted to be someone who knew what they want to do. I am a very passionate and determined person so I know I could achieve the dream if only I had a dream.

I have applied for jobs in different areas in a way to see what comes back in the hope that would help me to realise what I really want but at the moment I feel even more confused.

I have been trying to be as positive as I can for the last few weeks but today I haven’t succeed and just wish this confusing stage would be over. There is nothing more frustrating than being ready for change but now knowing which direction to go in.

I am however a firm believer in everything happens for a reason; so maybe I am being giving this confusing chapter so that eventually I will have more clarity on what I am suppose to do with my life. I just need to be patient a little bit longer and hopefully the right job will come along.

Tomorrow I will try to be a lot more positive as I am lucky to have the job I do.


Staying Positive

I recently watched a programme on Netflix called ‘The Secret’ it is based on the book The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. I met a guy at work who was telling me how this book had changed his life and how he tries to use it to guide him to a more positive and fulfilling life. He had created a mood board with his dreams on and every day he looks at it and visualises how he is going to get to it. I was instantly interested and I have ordered the book but while I waited for it to arrive I noticed the programme on Netflix so thought I would give it ago.
The programme was filmed in 2006 so it did take me a while to get into it as the start was a bit out there compared to programmes I usually watch. The programme looks at different writers, philosophers and scientist who share their views and ideas around success and how it is achievable. I am currently in a state of career confusion/ life confusion so this really helped to look at different ideas and see which one resonated with me the most.
During the programme they talk about the laws of attraction and how if we think positively we attract positivity. It made me realise that recently I had been thinking quite negatively about my life and where I am currently at in my career. The Secret made me realise that I need to think positively about change into a different career and find away to move away from the negativity and work towards living a more positive life. I realised that I needed to learn to really live my life again and have fun, laugh a lot more and not let work take over.
I was influenced by this programme so much so that I have even stuck and pound coin to my ceiling. I know that sounds crazy but in the programme a man sticks a dollar bill to his ceiling in the hope of making a million dollars in a year and because he looks at it every day and visualises earning the money. He starts up a business and works extremely hard and after a year he has earnt near enough the amount he had wanted. I am in no way aiming to get 1million pounds in a year but I am using it as a reminder to stay positive and try to seek out new opportunities and embrace what it is that I really what out of life.
It has taken a while to get to this point but I am feeling a lot more positive and have been looking at different career options and I am feeling more positive that I may actually be able to move into my own house in the near future.

Career Confusion :/

I haven’t wrote a blog post for a few weeks so now it feels like I’m a starting again from scratch again. I have been super busy at work and trying to figure out what my next career move should be. As much I like my job it does not fulfil my ambitions and therefore I am looking to branch out and a gain higher position.
I am waiting for a response from interview I recently went to for a training programme that I have been interested in since I finished university. I applied for this same training programme a year ago and didn’t get it so thought I would give it another shot. I decided to apply again as I have worked in a related field for the past year and have managed to gain a lot of experience that would help me in this role. I suppose there was also a certain level of curiosity to see if I could actually get it this time too.
However this time round at the interview there were certain elements that made me question whether this job is the right job for me. I know that there is that part of me that would really enjoy the job but there is also a part of me who wonders if I am just applying for the job because that has been what I have been aiming for since university. The first time I went for the interview I was really excited as the prospect of working for this company but this time round there was a different feeling to the interview and the type of people that were being interviewed was also different…(Stereotypical I know but It just didn’t feel like I fitted in quite as well as before). I have changed a lot and what I enjoy has changed too so I have been spending the last few days trying to figure out exactly what it is that I enjoy so that I can work out whether this career option would be the right choice for me.
It is a scary thought to suddenly change the direction of my career from where I thought it would be going but I don’t want to look back in a few years and regret taking a job that I wasn’t fully sure about..
I’m sure that when I get the response from my interview I will know what my gut reaction will be and I will then be clearer on the decision that I need to make. We never know if we are making the right decision but we just have to go with our gut instincts. I guess for now I will wait for a response from the training programme but also ponder over ideas of what I would really enjoy doing. I feel that this is the time to embrace change and not to over think a career change as in 10 years’ time it could be the best thing that I ever did.